Tuesday, June 27, 2006
There is pain, it's so near my heart.
To describe it, I fail.
To deny it, I try.
Even so, it is overwhelming me, and now I cry silently.
The days and nights pass.
I wonder if there is anything more to life.
I am puzzled by the behaviour of many.
Helplessly falling into a pit of lies, it seems.
Tackled one problem to give rise to another.
The truth to social acceptance hurts.
My life cycle seems of a butterfly.
Discriminated while I was crawling, noticed when I started fluttering.
Promises of sweeter days.
Words of warm comfort.
I'm the last person you want to hurt.
But with that, I was the first person you killed.
No more can I feel the thrill.
There is no excitement.
I am never satisfied.
Nothing I do feels right anymore, as my thoughts brag that I could do so much better.
Friends, are you slipping away?
I don't hear from you... or am I not listening?
What do I have to do to get you back?
I guess I'll get you back, if I looked better?
I thought I knew how love felt.
I felt so much at ease.
I felt a sense of security.
But all that, turned out to betray me.
I am crying, because of the pain.
The pain is there, because I am in fear.
The fear is there, because I have failed so many times.
And now, I don't know what to do - for I am numbed from everything else.
I am at a standstill - I don't know how to love, not even myself.
3:36 PM Azzie's got style
