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Friday, December 09, 2005
While I'm having a war with my internet connection (actually, I've figured out that there is a form of connection between 7am-9am, after that it acts up on me '=____=), I've been doing other things to keep me occupied. It does help when your parents leave you assignments of the day, like cleaning up the cupboards and running errands around the city.
Even though I have much spare time, I must confess that I'm starting to hate the idea of exercising, or rather, having to keep up with an exercise schedule. Now, I just exercise spontaneously - yeah, so pile up the pounds, it may seem, but I couldn't care less. I've had my share of two extremes, being overweight and being underweight - I'm working my way to find a balance in that, just like everything else in life. Now that the stress of studying isn't affecting me, I worry less. What the past two years have told me would most definitely go something like this:
1. For your future's sake, do what you love, or enjoy - something that you will stick to for the rest of your life.
2. Don't go chasing after things that majority of people seem to be chasing - who said it would suit you anyway?
3. Being thin does not mean being beautiful. Only Hollywood seems to think so, although not everyone agrees that it's not nice to see bones protuding from underneath a person's skin on your television screen.
4. Don't ban certain foods - there is a reason why food is prepared that way, and it is to be enjoyed and eaten! Just, enjoy in moderation. Overdo it and it'll pile up on you, exclude it and you'll be craving for it. (And seriously, you do not want to have cravings for things - you'll end up going for a food rampage).
5. Friends are people who do not have any intention of hurting you. They will accept you for who you are, and are always there to watch your back (by that I don't mean wondering what's inside the trunk/jeans/shirt XP).
6. Love yourself - it is only then when you can love others.
From form 6, I cannot say I've done my ultimate or put my best effort into learning what I wanted to persue in the future, but I've learned many things about life - much more than I would have imagined, from the beautiful people around me. It is unfortunate that our current education system does not embrace one's creative side very well - considering that our country is still undergoing development, it is more focused to science and technology.
It is not that I hate to study science - I love science. It has been in my field of interest since I was first introduced to it. I had a dream, of becoming a doctor. Though I do fear the sight of blood, I know I could have adjusted myself to it as I've done a few white rat dissections which gradually became easier after the first dissection. If given time to explore I feel that I can do very well in this field, but there is this craze where everyone wants to complete doing things in the shortest period of time. Theories, formulae, facts - we are all forced to understand them and accept them the way there are, without understanding them. To me, what is the point of just swallowing the information wholly? Is what we are studying at the moment truly insignificant to what we wish to become? Constantly, in my mind, I hear the drumming of "Why, why, why?", beckoning me to know the reasoning to all the existence of the theories and facts. They remain unanswered, as the mind is denied of the supporting facts - and the main reason? Time constrain.
That being the case, I've used my free time (partially) to think of other options. If the inquisitive mind is refused of answers, then perhaps it's better to look at one's skill, or strength. I did not consider this until a friend pointed out that I could do so much more with the creative side of my mind, which took me a long time to accept. No one can deny that the world largely depends on equations and mathematical analysis, but who said that one cannot live with the absolute minimal knowledge on those? There are an exceptional few who have brilliant minds in those subjects - but that is their strength, and not everyone has to have it.
With this, I've chosen to resume my studies next year, in February. I will be taking the degree course in Professional Communication at Lim Kok Wing's Institute of Creative Technology, which will take four years to complete. The foundation year will be done in Kuching itself (they recently opened an institute here at Travillion mall), and the next three years will be done at the Cyberjaya campus in Selangor. If I wanted to, and if my parents would allow it, I can go overseas to complete the final year, but we'll see about that, hee hee. I know I cannot be wrong in making this choice - professional communication is not only about journalism - you are taught the skills to relate to the public, to communicate with the world, write scripts and novels, conveying messages... these are the things I feel that I would stick to and enjoy doing for the rest of my life. Out with the old dream, in with a new one.
True, nothing in life is easy. Everyone has to struggle, because if it were that simple, every single individual would be prospering in every aspect of life. But, when you have the choice, do something that you feel no doubt, but confidence in yourself.
With that, there isn't a day that goes by that I do not think of the wonderful friends I have, regardless whether they have been there with me since my younger days or people I have just related and bonded with in the past two years. I thank them every day, for helping me up when I fell, for guiding me when I was blinded. I wasn't taking care of myself, but now I will. There's so much more to life, I know that now, and I'm going to live it to set my own and see others progress.
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